A Whole happy afternoon of cam-whoring!!! =D

Well,The last couple of days I've been tew emo for meh own good.I'm pretty sure I hurt people tew..I sorrie.Pwease forgive meh!!! Anyway,I've been cam-whoring the whole afternoon and now I'ma gonna post the pics here!! ^.^

Meh:Hehehehe

So SMEXI!!! =D

I ish wearing a smexi skirt!!=D

Rofl...This one is not nice..D=

Another one of meh crazyness =D

I LOVE MEH CRAZYNESS!!

I'ma too lazy to write all of it so there will just be pictures!! =D





















Befor I show yew guys the next pictures I wanna show yew the super smexi person who made meh wanna wear like him!! =D Gabe Saporta!!! =D (I do NOT own him)


























THA END!!! WOOHOO!!!!Comment on how yew like it or dun like it!!!
-xoxoxox Sammie

*Sigh*...Random post and also plans for future

Hai guyz!!!! I'm still posting for you information...lol....Anyway,for a couple of days I was quite emo and I really wanna appologize to the people who had to take my emo-ness....Is that a word??...lol...Anyway,why I'm emo is still a complete mistery to some people...sometimes it also puzzles me why I'm so emo...Well I guess it's because I have strange mood swingie emotions....Again I'm so sorry to people who have to take my emo-mood swingieness..Um...Well in school there's a couple of problems with my 'lau dau' and also some choir people...But everything at home is supprisingly good...I HAVE MY OWN FUCKIN LAPTOP!!!!YAY!!!! ^.^ *does the sotong dance* WOOHOO!!!! But shit.....My phone bill just came in...TT.TT.....IT WAS LIKE RM 700 SOMETHING!!!!!My mom is gonna fry the living shit (And no,there no living shit inside of me)..TT.TT...But whatever...She will scream and I will ignore..I can imagen it oledi..

Mom:WHY YOU USE SO MUCH MONEY GIRL?!?!?!?YOU KNOW MAKING MONEY IS NOT EASY?!?!?
Me:Yes mom.........So sorry...
Mom:But ah girl....YOU KNOW I EVERY DAY SO HARD MAKE MONEY FOR YOU?!?!?
Me:Yes mom...Sorry....
Mom:BUT YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!EVERYDAY I GO OUT MAKE MONEY FOR YOU ONLY ARH!!!!AND YOU JUST TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT!!!
Me:Sorry mom....I do more chores okay???
Mom:BLA BLA BLA *Not really listening*

I think that will go that way???
I NEED TO FUCKING CASTRATE MY BROTHER!!!!!HE'S LIKE A FRIKKIN TEENY!!! HE'S LIKE :OMFG!!!! WANG LEE HOM IS SO FRIKKIN TALENTED AND SO FUCKING HOT!!!I WANNA BANG HIM!!!
Yes,I'm pretty sure he's gay.....*Sigh* So much for having a sister-in-law....Well NVM!!!! I'LL HAVE A BROTHER-IN-LAW THEN!!!! YAY!!!! BTW,I met two new cool friends =D. One's name is Courtney/santa/dirty santa and the other is Khalid/Kyle!! They rock!!!I now completely given up on having a a boyfriend!!! Ever!! (Yes,I know I'm BI and no I'm not searching for a girlfriend.I just wanna be single)*sigh* Don't want to find one cause I'm lazy but I might accept if someone asks.That someone must be nice of courz...l0l....But I don't think something like that will happen soom...So yea,I should enjoy my free time of not being tied down..=D...Okay,what I'm going to tell you next might shock you so bad that you might think there is something wrong with my head...I enjoyed the next song by MILEY CYRUS...YEA,THAT'S RIGHT BITCHES,MILEY CYRUS!!!*sigh* I have problems that I abviously need to fix...=.=..Well I need to rap this up soon...See ya!!!

Cause I don't have pics I'll put up all the cute and lovely quotes I can find about love:

If i has to choose between loving you, and breathing.
I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU.
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When I saw you I was afraid to meet you.
When I met you I was afraid to kiss you.
When I kissed you I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.
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As we grow older together,
As we continue to change with age,
There is one thing that will never change. . .
I will always keep falling in love with you.
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If you love something,let it go.
If it comes back to you,its yours forever.
If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.
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Meeting you was fate,
becoming your friend was a choice,
but falling in love with you I had no control over.
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And if it all falls apart,
I will know deep in my heart,
the only dream that mattered had come true.
In this life, I was loved by you.
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Love begins with a smile,
grows with a kiss,
and ends with a teardrop.
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They say loving you gives pains and full of sacrifices
But I'll rather take pains and lots of sacrifices
than not to be love by you.
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Two souls with but a single thought,
Two hearts that beat as one
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Love is much like a wild rose,
beautiful and calm,
but willing to draw blood in its defense.
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Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...
Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on.
One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU...
The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...
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A kiss is a lovely trick,
designed by nature,
to stop words when speech becomes superfluous.
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In my wildest dreams,
you always play the hero.
In my darkest hour of night,
you rescue me,
you save my life.
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BYE!! I love you guys!!! xoxoxoxoxo-Sammie

And you broke my heart without knowing it...

Here's a story:
Girl meets boy.Boy meets girl.Girl fall in love with boy.Boy does not even even notice.Girl like the boy from a far.Boy still does not notice.Girl have family trouble.Girl cry and cuts.Boy does not know.Girl cannot meet boy.Boy cannot meet girl.Girl don't see much of the boy.Boy don't see much of the girl.Girl thinks feelings for boy is over.Boy still does not notice.Girl meets boy once again.Boy meets girl once again.Boy treats girl like princess.Girl falls for the boy again.Girl crush over boy. Boy crush over other people.Boy tell girl boy's crushes.Girl feels sad because because boy not crushing over girl.Girl bottles up sad emotions.Girl and bot don't see each other for a few days.Girl loses something very important in life that makes girl sad.Girl cries and try not to cut.Boy is not there for girl.girl feel like killing herself and nearly did...........
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Sound familiar??
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This is MY story.....
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END....

I broke your heart ( and trust ) and I'm sorry for it.....

I'm so sorry..I fucking broke your heart..I fucking broke your trust...I'm so frikking useless not to be able to stand for you....I can't do it no matter how hard I try...I miss your hugs,your love and I just miss you...I'm crying now...I'm crying my heart for you..I hope you never forget me...I broke your heart and now I'm taking the price to pay.....I'll promise you this thought,I will make sure I'm best at IT for you...I will dedicate every one in you name..I'll make sure of that....Relax,just enjoy your new life.....Don't make me worry about you please...I'm even fighting the urge to cut...Though with you gone I want to cut so bad...You make me feel sane and now I feel like I'm losing my mind...We both are fallen stars and I really hope we will meet soon...My eyes are so blury from crying from you I don't think i can do it anymore...Can anyone tell me what's the use of living when it's painfull this way?!?!?!? Is life really that usefull for living?!?!?!?Why can't I just die?!?!I love you Toby,so much it hurts.....I'm such a jackass.......I love you...Don't ever forget that...

New post.Letter to you!! =D

Hahahaha!!!!It's like my post the next day!!!!lol...I'm wierd....=D...First off,shouout!!!! SHOUTOUT:Happy Birthday Adam!!!..lol....
Well anyway,yesterday I've been too emo oledi so I thought I should write something that makes you see that I have the girly dreamy side of me too!!!I'm not listening to a song that make's me happy and wanna cry at the same time...So emotional...The name of the song is It Ends Tonight by The All-American Rejects.I love the song especially the starting because of the piano.I would love for someone to learn how to play that song for me on piano...(CELESTE!!!!)....lol....OMG!!!!Hahahaha Cls says Tyson Ritter looks like a drug addie....lol...I think he looks like a hot drug addie!!!!!!ARGH!!!!!!I'm in love with Gabe Saporta!!!!Hot,hot,hot!!!!lol.....William Beckket also not bad...But Brendon Urie wins the hottest of them all!!!!!!Anyway,I am gonna stop myself from being such a teeny and actually go on with the real post...lol....There was this letter that is written by a girl name Sarah Bercot that I've found that is amazing and I'm really happy about this.I wanna write this to guy that I like...But anyway,I'll post it here first =D!!!
The Letter:
Dear Boy,
I do not know who you are, or where or when we will meet, but I do hope it is soon.
I pray that when we meet and fall in love, you will love me, for me, and not hope for someone who is thinner or prettier. I hope you won't compare me to girls who may have brighter smiles. I hope that you will make me laugh, take care of me if I get sick, and be trustworthy.
I hope you will remember that I prefer roses to any other flower , and that my favorite color changes with my mood. Please know that my eyes aren't just black.They have a bit of brown.
Please know that I might be too shy to kiss you first, but please don't be afraid to kiss me. I won't slap you or push you away. I'm sure your kisses will be perfect. When we go on a date, please don't stress about where to take me; what's important is that I'll be with you.
If I cry, please know it isn't because of you, just hold me close, and I'll heal quickly. And, if it is because of you, I'll heal just the same.
And if we decide to break up, please understand that I may be bitter, but I'd like to be your friend if you'll let me. I promise to remember that you have feelings too, even though you'll never admit it, and when you are ready we'll have a friendship.
Please tell me if anything I do bothers you, or if something just doesn't sit right. I would like you to always be honest with me. If I have a bad day, I hope you will shower me with confidence and smiles.
I hope you don't think I'm asking too much of you. I hope you understand that I'm a little bit nervous and very scared. I wish I could tell you how or when we will meet, and if we will be in love forever. Every relationship is a new game of cards, and . . . (sigh) . . . I've never been good at cards. But I will try my best to be kind and love you dearly for all that you are, without expecting too much from you. Thank you for listening; this is all that I ask.

Yours always,
Sammie Black (Originally by Sarah Bercot)
(Found in the book Chicken Soup For The Teenage Soul 3)
The letter above I do not own anything!!!!It's all by Sarah Bercot!!She's amazing!!! I just change it a bit to suite me..But beside that it's all Sarah Bercot..Like I said,this is something I wanna write to the person I like....I dunno...*Sigh*...I feel like he's nice to everyone...Now I feel like that it's not unnormal for him to treat me so nice....I dunno!!!! Should I care??Please comment and tell me!!!!!Um...I need to end this but like always,befor I do I need to put up pictures!! I will put up pictures of everyone mentioned in this post!! Well maybe....I'll try to find them all...
Above:Tyson Ritter!!I love the way he looks...Hot drug addie!!!!
Above:I love the way Gabe Saporta looks in this picture!!!!So cute!!!
Above:William Backket is so cute and looks so innocent in this one!!Love it!!!^~^ Above:The hottest of them all!!!Brendon Urie!!!Looks so pouty cute and hot at the same time!!!
Above:Me..In the car...I HAVE to post my picture cuz I'm very perasan one...Hehehe^^
Above:WOW!!What smexi pants!!!!Lol...That's just my tight pants...lol..=D

Guys,thanks for reading,caring and loving!!!Love you guys!!!Rock on!!! -xoxoxo Sammie

Hi!!For once I'm posting! !Love!!!

Hey yall!!!Yes,I said/typed yall.Got a problem with it?!?!? Whatever...Anyway,it's like 12.50 PM and I have a sudden urge to post so this is what I'm doing now.(ATTENTION!!!:MY FACEBOOK HAS GONE HAYWIRE AND I NEED TO MAKE A NEW ACCOUNT SO FROM NOW I'M ABANDONING BOTH MY ACCOUNTS) Anyway,what I'm gonna write next is really important and if you really wanna know about my personal life you really have to read on.As some of you close friends know,I cut...And you guys have seen the scars...Usually its on my thighs but for awhile now it's getting more irresistible to not cut...And not only that but I'm beginning to want to slit my wrist...I know its wrong and I should not do that but sometimes I just don't have the power to overcome this urges anymore....Oh ya,Mommy and Daddy want to sell Toby,the dog I've love and still will love ever seance I was like nine...I'm also depressed about that...And then there is my school...What can I say about it??It hurts me so much and people don;t get it...I get more depressed and more depressed in school everyday and people think of my life as easy going and simple.I hurt too...That's a part people think I can't ever have....But I do!!I have it more than usual people....Oh ya...And I DO NOT NEED THE HELP OF PUAN HELENA!!! I DO NOT HEED HER TO BUTT INTO MY LIFE JUST CUZ SHE'S A COUNSELOR TEACHER!!! (No offence to her.It's just a time in my life where I do not need someone with authority,especially an adult,to tell me what to do in my life.It's okay to have really close friends to know and comment about my sick habbit but not a ground for the authrotised adult to steep on.) In the past few days I've notice that if something good happens one one side the other side I will have something bad happen...I'm sick and tired of my life and I wanna commit suicide....I need suppport from my friends most of all.....I have just got into too deep in my life....Let's go back up okay? (You:okay) (Me:Good!!) Guess what I'm listening to now? Drumroles please!! *Drumrole*...THE INTERNET IS FOR P0RN!!!lol.....That Is one wierd crazy lovable song...And it's in Panic! style...Hehehehe...Anyway,you see...There's this guy that I have a huge crush feeling for him...He's so sweet and nice to me it make's me feel like he's not real because I'm used to being treated like dirt and now here he comes,treating me like a princess....He's so nice and also handsome!!!!But I know that we will never be together.....*Sigh*.....I mention him in my last post...If yall read my last post....I like him sooooooooo much!!!!!Lol....I feel like I'm a teeny after Gerard Ways ass or something...lol....Anyway,I've been feeling like craling bit by bit out of my emo shell to become a normal 13-year-old and sometimes it feels goo sometime it don't.Well I've wrote this long enough and there is pictures of the un-emo side of me!!!lol...

Above:A very un-emo,un-prep picture of me ^^
Above:I quite happy in this one ^~^ Above:I open a can of pout for me lover!!!!lol (I can do a one alot cuter tho) Above:A love for my love.....<3 Above:I'm in love with you...Can't you see it??

Above:(I DO NOT OWN THIS PICTURE!!!)
And last but not least,I put a picture of Gerard Way because
A)I have put too much of my pictures and I'm feeling like I'm too perasan
oledi...
B)I used his name somewhere in this post......And
C)Because I love his makeup!!!

Thanks For Reading And Caring!!!!Love You Guys!!! -xoxoxo Sammie

Again..SOrry for constantly never posting and some other usless stuff....

Hey guys!!!It's me again.I just came home from church and my hand have melting skittles stains on my hands eventhough I tried to wash it out...xD...Anyway,Like the tittle said I'm so effin sorry for not always posting...I've been lazy...And Busy...Mixed together...Lol...Anyway,today one of my friends from church asked me about my blog and when he did I realised that I needed to put more of my personal stuff in here.So I now wanna write My personal stuff in here.Um.....Well...I will start with family I guess.... FAMILY...I guess everythings as normal as it can be.My brothers and I bond is still as strong as ever and I enjoy it alot.My mom and dad...Sigh...Same old same old I guess.... SCHOOL,what can I say about it?..It's so frikkin useless when I go to school and I don't study in school cuz half the time the teachers never come...then the people in the school makes me wanna kill myself.They are so frikkin NARROWED MINDED!!!I really wanna move to SMK Bintang Utara but my parents don't let me...D=.... Then FRIENDSHIP.My friendship with my friend/sometimes bestfriend is slowly but surely rotting...Sigh...That girl sometimes treat other people better than how she treats me....But whatever,I'm over it.My tears would not be spilled for a person who does not deserve it.I did make new bestfriends.Two to be percise.One is Cls and the other is Ksh.( I will just put like a shortcut of their name to save them from any stupitdy that may or may not come out from me and my sources..=D)They are really like me...Depressed and really really HYPER!!!!!I love them.I feel like we are all related or something..... Well last but not least,RELATIONSHIP.Okay...Well as a couple of you guys know,I've been dumped by a guy (Now one of my bestfriend),Mikey and dumped a guy (Also one of my besties)Alex.But now I kinda have a feeling two guys like me.I like one guy back but I don't like the other guy.One frome school one from somewhere else.I will not say where cuz that guy reads my blog and if I say where he will know that I know...lol....That was....Dumb...lol... Oh ya that night I was so frikkin angry cuz I din get to go anywhere during the holiday...So I thought that during the end year holidays that the Form 1 people from Minda Ceria will go and go hang gai gai and have fun..Maybe...I dunno....See larh....Okay..Then End (Perasan.....Lol..ME!!!!)